Undecided

Well, I've been testing on and off the last week. All have been negative. My temps. have dipped some, but not too much. They actually rose a couple hundredths of a degree this am. I am feeling yucky again this am with some crampy. Maybe my cycle is going to start. My two week testing date is tomorrow. But, I tested as early as yesterday and it was negative. I just don't want to slip into the same situation I had after the ectopic where I had months without a cycle. I had to be put on a medicine to actually start one up. If this is a negative cycle, I just wish it would hurry up and start so we can proceed onto another cycle. I was kind of expecting this cycle to be "the one". I had some promising signs. But, as the month goes along it's not looking so good. That's the real bummer. I'm trying to stay positive and tell myself I'm not out until the fat, ugly lady gets here. :)

We have another wedding this weekend. Garrett is an usher in this one. So, we have that to do. Next weekend we have a reception. I'm not looking forward to that. It's on the day that our baby would have been due. I think that, that's going to be a rough day for me and I just don't know if I want to go to a reception. I guess I'll just wait and see what that day holds when it gets here.