Dr. Appt. number 1

I had my dr. appt. today. I'm due 5/16 but, it will probably be sooner. We may induce or have a c-section due to Sawyer being so big. We'll decide at the u/s at 38wks. I'm off the weekly u/s. I have to go back in 4wks. for my monthly appt. Then, again 4wks. later and do another u/s then. Garrett is going so hopefully we'll be able to see if the peanut is a boy or a girl! If not by Christmas hopefully we'll know. The heart beat was good at 150. I feel really good after this appt. I'm off the weekly u/s which is great! Not that I minded going but, living week to week makes a person a little nervous. I've been sick over the weekend with some sort of stomach bug from the kids at school. I'm feeling better today but, now I'm tired and I think "m/s" is kicking in for the day. Morning sickness, yeah right. This pregnancy it hasn't been in the am at all.

Feeling better

I'm feeling better today. I am having a couple of good days amoungst the ones that I feel yucky from morning sickness. I did not feel well last night at all. I think I caught a bit of a stomach bug from the kids at school. We had two leave yesterday sick to their stomaches. It was different then how I was feeling with m/s. I felt better this am but, was just worn out. So, I took another day to not clean the house or get groceries. I also didn't do any homework. I'll have a lot to do this weekend. Oh, well. I'll just take it one day at a time. That's all I can do.

Sawyer still hasn't decided what he wants to be for haloween. I've been looking online for ideas but nothing really struck me yet. I'm sure I'll find something.

YEAH!!!

We got good news today. The u/s shown that it is a baby!! It's in the right spot and growing. We still aren't out of the woods yet. But, it gets better every week. I go again next week for another u/s and an appt. afterward with the dr. I was able to see how much the gestational sac has grown. There's a yolk sac and the start of a fetal pole (the baby, it's not just cells anymore!). I had to lay very still and the u/s tech. had to keep really still but, I was also able to see the heartbeat on the monitor. It was too little still to hear but, I was able to see it. That was a really good feeling. So, we are getting alittle more excited and staying optimistic that this one's going to work. I'll know more next week. I am not able to get in until the 29th unless they get cancelations on Friday. They were already booked up. Also, they didn't want to do anything earlier since it probably wouldn't change much until the end of next week.

I'd better go. Sawyer has a cold and he needs some more drink. I'm trying to keep him pumped with fluids. :)

Good and Bad News

Well, the bad news is that there is still something on my right ovary. It hasn't grown in size. The u/s tech. isn't sure what it is. Some guesses are that the ovary is misshapened from the last ectopic. She was going to talk to the dr. on Monday as he was out of the office today. My b/w from yesterday hasn't come back yet. The nurse called the hospital but, it was still pending as on 1pm. She said that she would call when she got the results. They closed about a half hour ago, so I didn't get a call. She said to call on Monday if I didn't hear anything.

The good news is that there is something in the uterus!! The tech. said it could be two things. One a blood clot from the thing on my ovary or two a gestational sac that is starting to grow a yolk sac. I asked her what her opinion was since she does this everday. She said that she didn't want to get my hopes up too high but she thought it was a gestational sac. It's measuring at 4wks. 2 days. She said that would be a reason she didn't see anything last week. It would have only measured 3wks. and you can't see that on u/s. I'm not out of the woods so to speak yet, but we are closer. I go back on Friday again to measure any growth and to see if what we saw was actually a yolk sac starting. So, I got another stay for another week. I think I'll be living this "pregnancy" week by week. That's ok with me as long as it's really a baby and it's healthy.

Tight Rope Walking

Well, Garrett and I have only told our parents. But, we found out last Thursday we are pregnant again. Ok, ok, don't get too excited yet. I went for bloodwork (b/w) on Thursday and everything was ok. On Friday I went with Mom for an ultrasound (u/s). The dr. wanted to do this early because of the previous ectopic. Since I had one previously, there is a chance it would happen again. The u/s shown abnormal fluid on the right side again. The u/s tech. said that she thought it was another ectopic. So, Mom and I were pretty upset that it happened again. The dr. was in surgery and not in the office so, I made an appt. to discuss treatment that afternoon. I went into the appt. fully expecting to have to do the Methyltrexate shot again. That is was I had to do to terminate the last pregnancy. He said that he doesn't think that this pregancy is an ectopic. My progesterone levels were too high. He said that he only saw those in "sustainable pregnacies". He said that on her report she said that she saw suspisous (sp) fluid and bloodflow. He did an exam and said that he didn't feel any "badness". So, I have been doing b/w about every two to three days and seeing if they double. My first b/w (these are all the hcg levels that need to double) on Thursday was 87, Sat. -205, and Monday 392. He was very happy with those. I was suppose to go on Monday to see the next step but, the nurse just called and told me the news. So, I go tomorrow for another u/s to see if the baby is in the right spot. It could still be an ectopic so, I'm not trying to get my hopes up but, I don't not want to think postitively. So, it's a tight rope I'm walking. My appt. isn't until tomorrow afternoon so, I'll post the results on Sat. if I don't make it by Friday.

Undecided

Well, I've been testing on and off the last week. All have been negative. My temps. have dipped some, but not too much. They actually rose a couple hundredths of a degree this am. I am feeling yucky again this am with some crampy. Maybe my cycle is going to start. My two week testing date is tomorrow. But, I tested as early as yesterday and it was negative. I just don't want to slip into the same situation I had after the ectopic where I had months without a cycle. I had to be put on a medicine to actually start one up. If this is a negative cycle, I just wish it would hurry up and start so we can proceed onto another cycle. I was kind of expecting this cycle to be "the one". I had some promising signs. But, as the month goes along it's not looking so good. That's the real bummer. I'm trying to stay positive and tell myself I'm not out until the fat, ugly lady gets here. :)

We have another wedding this weekend. Garrett is an usher in this one. So, we have that to do. Next weekend we have a reception. I'm not looking forward to that. It's on the day that our baby would have been due. I think that, that's going to be a rough day for me and I just don't know if I want to go to a reception. I guess I'll just wait and see what that day holds when it gets here.

Some Good News

I got at least some good news this am. My temp. did rise again. It's back up to where it is suppose to be. I am going to try and wait until Thursday to test again. Today I'm feeling bloated and a little crampy. Nothing too bad. So, I'm still waiting on either a new cycle or a positive pregnancy test. I personally am rooting for #2. I don't want surgery again and IUI if I don't have to do it. I have homework to do, I just thought I'd post and update on the temp. I'm sure some of you may have been anxiously awaiting to see if it rose.