Last night I took my first clomid dose for this cycle. I usually don't start to get the side effects of hot flashes until the end of the dosing schedule (or end of the 5 days). I did have the weirdest dreams last night though. I was yelling at an instructor at a lecture on ttc (trying to concieve) on being more tactful when talking about that stuff because some people have been trying for a long time and haven't been successful. Another one, I was at my grandmother's house and she was there. We were just talking about everything and watching the cars go by her house. It was very weird. It's just too bad she's not here to talk to her about it and get her wisdom. I really miss her somedays! But, like Sawyer says, "She's ok, she's in heaven with Scootie!". Sweet boy, he always makes me smile. I've been really emotional these last few days too. It's probably due to the start of my new cycle. So, it's on to another dose tonight! For you that don't understand clomid, you are suppose to take it to as close to the same time each day/night. I've chosen to take them at night since I have less dramatic side effects. Most people do take them then.
Well last night was a bit of a remembering night. I was laying in bed watching tv with Sawyer and I just got the thought in my head that I would have a huge baby belly right now. It would be hard to see the tv over it. I would only have 4 weeks left of pregnancy if the ectopic would have implanted where it was suppose to. There are just days and situations that bring that all to the forfront. I'm sure it will be like that the rest of my life, on the day I was due, just thinking what that baby would have been like or when I would have reached certain milstones in pregnancy were hard too. At 20 weeks we should have been having an ultrasound. Instead I was still enduring blood tests to make sure my baby had been absorbed. There are just days that this whole situation just sucks!! We would be great parents and can't have a baby. While there are people out there that could give two cents about their kids and can pop them out like a pez dispenser! I guess I'm just getting a good lesson in patience! I think that I'm ready for a different lesson now. :)
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Grandma came to you in your dreams to comfort you and let you know she's with you. She's always with you in your heart.
Hang in there sweetie. Lot's of people are praying for you.
My name is Helen Page and i would like to show you my personal experience with Clomid.
I am 30 years old. I have taken for 3 months. My progesterone level after my first dose of Clomid was 65 so I knew that I had ovulated. Couldn't try the second cycle on it because my husband went out-of-town while I was O'ing, go figure. Hoping it worked this month!!
I have experienced some of these side effects-
Mood swings, increased appetite, hot flashes, increased pain during ovulation, abdominal pain, mild but infrequent headaches. Also, I used to be on a consistent 28 day cycle, but I think Clomid might have lengthened it as I'm now on a 31-32 day cycle.
I hope this information will be useful to others,
Helen Page
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